A Special Place (song #113)

A Special Place

I never meant to let you in

(and) You showed showed me I can (could?) never win

With all your dreams that you stole from my eyes

I’m not the only one who fell for your lies

There’s a special place for people like you

Your pride is the only thing that rings true

Slash and burn is all you could (can?) ever do

There’s a special place for people like you

I got caught up in your master plan

You targeted me ’cuz that’s how I am

With all your stories I just had to believe

I know I should have known I would be deceived

There’s a special place for people like you

Your pride is the only thing that rings true

Slash and burn is all you could (can?) ever do

There’s a special place for people like you

I am still haunted every day

By what you did and what I didn’t say

Sometimes I think I should heal this wound

But your soul is too dark for me to ever break through

You travel only in one direction

Always stealing other people’s perfection

You hold all the cards to force all your games

But in the end your life is only built on shame

There’s a special place for people like you

Your pride is the only thing that rings true

Slash and burn is all you could (can?) ever do

There’s a special place for people like you

© 2014 by Richard Maxwell

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We Never Said Goodbye (Song #112)

We Never Said Goodbye

Hold your wishes close

And let the regrets go

I stood here waiting

But you did not show

Now I have taken steps

And I have moved ahead

Some things are just better unspoken

They’re just better left unsaid

We never said goodbye

I wasn’t looking to bring you down

I didn’t walk away

You just never came around

I’ve wondered why you couldn’t try

But still we never said goodbye

Keep (the) broken promises

Let loose all the chains

You’ve been holding all the cards

I been playing all the games

Now I may have seen it all

Though you have shut the blinds

I’m not afraid of what I’ll lose

You’ve shown me what I’d find

We never said goodbye

I wasn’t looking to bring you down

I didn’t walk away

You just never came around

I’ve wondered why you couldn’t try

But still we never said goodbye

Is there nothing so revealing as a moment of “what if?”

Is there nothing so concealing as a moment of regret?

We never said goodbye

I wasn’t looking to bring you down

I didn’t walk away

You just never came around

I’ve wondered why you couldn’t try

But still we never said goodbye

© 2014 by Richard Maxwell

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My Father's Suit Coat

I have not shared much here in a good while that was not music related, or, more specifically, a song, but something happened a couple of days ago that has nothing to do with music that I want to quickly share.

The other night we saw the excellent film, "Saving Mr. Banks."  I have no recollection of anything related to "Mary Poppins" as it relates to my dad, but for some strange reason while watching the film I had this very strong sense of him at one point.

The scene was simply one in which Tom Hanks, in the role of Walt Disney, was sitting next to someone - not a child - wearing a very well pressed, dark suit. For some reason at that very moment I had this very strong and detailed sense of what it had been like when I was very little and my parents would take me to synagogue and at the end of the service my father would pick me up and hold me.  I could actually recall the smell of Dad's jacket.  Note that Dad's jacket was a much lighter brown in color and more of a tweed so I cannot find a direct connection to what I saw in the movie.  But, regardless, the scent of the clean pressed wool was very present to me at that moment.  Even more so than the sense of his embrace.

It was strange, wonderful, and entirely unexpected; and it reminded not just how much I miss Dad but also how things of no seeming relation can remind me of him and take me back to wonderful places and the memories I have of him.

Toe The Lines (song #111)

Toe The Lines

I

Don't know why

I keep telling(falling for?) the same lies 

All the time

I 

Cannot deny

That every time you cried

I would hide

Toe the lines

You

Just can't do

All the simple truths

You used to

You

Worked it through

So it was shining new

Just for you

Toe the lines

Just because you can 

Doesn't mean you should

Just because you're in the lead 

Doesn't make you good

Toe the lines

We

Don't believe

The things that we still see

In our dreams

We 

Lost our need

To give and not receive

Anything

Toe the lines

© 2014 by Richard Maxwell

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One Love (song #110)

One love

Something deep within me 

Feels so empty

When I feel I'm losing you

Setting all beside me

Trust is unrelenting

When I don't know what to do

Needing a direction

Any kind of affection (attention?)

Just (to) get me through the day

Searching just inside me

Where I cannot hide me

My dissonance resonates

(But) this one love that you give

Is all I need

This one love that I live

From you to me

This one love

One love

Shouting from high above

What I must be thinking of

Takes all my breath away

In a moment passing

Nothing's everlasting

Yet this feels just that way

(But) this one love that you give

Is all I need

This one love that I live

From you to me

This one love

One love

Calm my heart

Reset restart

Calm my head

Remove retread

Call my soul

Replace re-know

Calm my love

Relearn re-touch 

(But) this one love that you give

Is all I need

This one love that I live

From you to me

This one love

One love

© 2014 by Richard Maxwell

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